Grace Unbeliever

I didn't know what's the classification of disease that coming up to my soul. I felt i would being grace unbeliever, thinking what i'd got disproportionately with what they had got. I was enviable look others who got high level society easily, not comfort look others being success with their carrier, jealous with others being in love with their soulmates, dislike with others full helps from people around them. Seems that all of it is blessed. But here i am, i have to perspire in torrents to get all, by only use my hands, feet and my though to reach all my dreams. Oh God, forgive me who often being unbelieve Your interere..